Everyone asks 'How is it with two kids?', and my answer tends to change by the day, or even by the hour. It is a lot of work. It is difficult. I feel like my house is in a constant state of chaos which drives me crazy… and it drives me crazy that the laundry isn't done or the beds are not made by the time my husband comes home at the end of the day.
I am a person who likes to be organized and likes to operate on a schedule, or at least somewhat of one. Some days Poppy sleeps well and I can get a lot done, but others she screams every time I put her down and all I can do is hold her. Then I feel guilty for not playing with Soren enough, or for not taking him out of the house for some sort of adventure.
Poor little Poppy has terrible gas, and she has periods where she seems to be in complete agony. I hear that this is normal for babies… but we didn't experience it with Soren so it's new to me. While it's frustrating being up at 2am, I feel terrible for her thinking that she is in pain. I keep thinking it's something I ate, but there is a lot in inconclusive research into breast-feeding diets and gassiness, so it's tough to know what to do. For now I am trying to cut out dairy and see if that helps, but so far I'm not seeing much of a difference.
Each day is different, and it's great to have wonderful days where I feel like I am on top of the world. On other days I try to remind myself that it's the little things that matter. Extra snuggles, taking a nap, doing one load of laundry instead of worrying about all of it. I know it won't kill Soren to watch a little extra TV, and sometimes the baby just needs all of my attention. Life with two is tough, that is for sure. How people have four or five or more is a mystery to me at this point!