An only child - the final seven weeks


I think every mom has a certain amount of guilt when she decides to add a new member to the family, however, I honestly didn't think much about it. It had never occurred to me to only have one child, so when we were thinking about having a second baby my thoughts on how it would effect Soren were not front and centre. We talked about how we would manage two kids in daycare, another year off work for me, and the added stress it would bring. Soren was a pretty happy and easy-going baby, so I wasn't too worried about adding another.

Now that we are seven weeks away from meeting this little girl, I'm beginning to realize just how much of an adjustment this is going to be for Soren. At two years and two months, he still sleeps in his crib, still wears diapers, and still likes to be carried a lot of the time. If I end up having a repeat c-section, I will not be able to lift him for at least three weeks. I cannot imagine this will go well.

He's just (fingers crossed) getting out of a pretty terrible stage of tantrums and meltdowns. I really don't want to revert back to the marathon screaming sessions throughout the dinner hour. He's also going through a rough stage where he prefers jumping on daddy's head to pretty much anything else in the world. I have a tough time playing with him, and constantly telling him 'no - you can't sit on mommy's belly', and 'no - I can't throw you up in the air 45 times in a row'. I worry about how he will react to me recovering from surgery, as well as being gentle with his baby sister.

Every morning I get him up and dressed, and carry him downstairs for breakfast. If we break this tradition he always reminds me, and then together we proceed to turn on the lights, let out the dogs, and turn on the coffee machine. I'm feeling a little sad that we will not have our morning routine anymore. We had an entire year of it being just the two of us, and I'm going to miss our little partnership. I'm sure our new trio will bring tons of new traditions and love, but I can't help but feel a little nostalgic as we go about these final few weeks of Soren's only-child life.

1 comment:

la petite lulu said...

Although I'm only just starting to think about these things, I know what you mean. Sometimes I worry about Oliver & how he will cope not having all my attention. It will be a change, that's for sure!

Is your dr allowing you to try for a VBAC? (not that you have to, of course!). Either way, I hope that it's an easy recovery for you!